think cleaning the back of the fridge means you've cleaned the dirtiest part of your apartment — it's downhill from there. kitchen's about 99% done, working on bathroom. couch is final throw-away-or-pack staging area with car as a big packing box since we're towing it (stuffies ride in driver's seat utterly convinced they're doing most of the driving). officially made last cup of espresso & decided to pull a card for the day. in the middle of writing this (9pmish), knock on the door. brother-in-law & baby brother. this is the fourth time BB's helped me move. big hug. game plan: crank it out tonight, easy going tomorrow. ready to leave at 5pm, LA by 2am, sleep on couch, apartment available at 9am, movers all set to go, lunch with dad. okie dokie! glad i made sure to rest up.
knocked on Bobbie's door & introduced her to last sibling & gave her a big hug. need to buy her something special & make sure to send it to her. Robert, in #1, gave the word for my departure (she refuses to say goodbye): aloha!
knew i could count on BB. Ron at the corner market wanted to meet him & i had to pay my tab. took Ron an hour to ring it up, $197! Ron laughed & said i had a great brother, i do. Ron's sick & getting tested, but his father-in-law coming in from Jordan to help with the store. Ron's a great friend & i'll miss him, Bobbie, my sister & her family & this neighborhood terribly.
we grabbed tacos at local Mexican eatery & drank beer. seems this whole thing is his idea & that the business partnership just went on a brief hiatus. y'know when you can talk with somebody after a huge upset w/o wincing? that kinda thing. we identified problem areas, stated facts w/o emotion & acknowledged each other's strengths. he told me he'd told the family a year ago that i was different (think he said a "special person"). he sketched out some ideas & a surprising direction (which may have me in New Orleans via Baton Rouge, i hope) we'll talk more about it on the drive to LA.
i realized updating Cycle #17 (The Crossroads) that while POCAHONTAS breezed past EON-16 i could not. decided to engineer me a paradigm shift with this move. the other day my sister's younger daughter had her first menstrual cycle. i'm going to kick this out tonight coz Ron said to make sure to spend time saying goodbye to my sister.
so this is the last post until flipside. currently reading (in-between wild packing flurries): Conformity, Over-Identification, Perversion, Sublimity ... via traxus4420 via I cite. (fatnigger? anyway, here's a study guide to Fyodor Dostoyevsky's Notes from Underground).
AQ 416 = FYODOR DOSTOYEVSKY = AMPHIDEMON OF TALISMANIA = ROSALIND ELSIE FRANKLIN.
AQ 446 = NOTES FROM UNDERGROUND = DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE = JIHAD: THE ABSENT OBLIGATION = X-RAY CRYSTALLOGRAPHER (Rosalind Franklin).
card for the day: (Waite deck) 5 of Wands = FIVE OF FIRE.
AQ 191 = FIVE OF FIRE = AB NEPHTYS = CORONZOM = DAY OF DEFEAT = DOUBLE WAND = GESINNUNG  = HEART STAR = PRESIDENT = STAR WARS = TALISMANIC = THE CHRIST = TREE OF LIFE = WHITE SUN = WILL + KNOW.
EQ 101 = AB NEPHTYS = ABSU SHUGAL = I AM LIFE I AM DEATH.
Gesinnung means "attitude, disposition, sentiments"; friedliche Gesinnung, "peaceable disposition"; edle Gesinnung, "nobleness, noble mind, noble sentiments". searching answers.com pops sin also mentioned in: war cycles, Friedrich Schleiermacher, supreme crime & Glossary of the Third Reich. both war cycles & supreme crime mention Sanctioning A WAR: A Dispositional or Situational TRAIT? (Für oder gegen ein militärisches Eingreifen: Ist die Einstellung zum Krieg eine Variable der Gesinnung oder des situationsbedingten Gemütszustands?) by David J. Krus & James M. Webb.
AQ 192 = A WAR TRAIT = 223 WOLF MOON = AND THE OMEGA = ANOMALOUS = BLIND SPOT (Pete Nowakoski, Emory = CONJURING (Druj Notes) = DARK SHOPS (Via delle Botteghe Oscure) = DEAD LEMURS = EM EMERGENCE = EROTICISM (Piet) = ETZ CHAYIN = FEBRUARY 22, 1964 (Malcolm X assasinated) = FORMATION = FORTRESS = FOUR KEYS = GLOBAL BRAIN = HIDDEN STAR = IBLIS-DURGA = ILL-ORDERED = KIA ON EARTH = MEREOLOGIC = NEW MEXICO (Half-Life) = OEDIPEDDLAR = PANARCHISM = RECONCILER = RE-INSCRIBE (Gayatri Spivak) = RESINOUS = ROCK SAVAGE (Scott McLemee) = ROSE TRIBE (Barazoku) = SECANT LINE = THE TRUTH = TRAITORS = TRANSITS = TRUE WILL = UNTOUCHED = UTTUNUL.
AQ 292 = WAR STATE TRAIT = BAD MEN IN TURBANS = BEHAVIORAL BIASES (Beyond Market Efficiency) = CONSCIOUSNESS = DECIMAL BLASPHEMY = JOSEKI ENDPOINT = LOTUS WORKING (LAM Gateway) = MASS EMPIRICISM = MOUNTAIN OF FIRE (Mount Merapi) = NEW TYPE OF BEING (Molecular Migration) = OIL AS A LUBRICANT = PASCAL'S TRIANGLE (CCRU; Those critics who seek to reduce Horovitz's work to an 'immensely indirect rediscovery of Pascal's triangle' fail to appreciate either the true antiquity of 'Pascal's' system or the machinic novelty of it's Horovitzean reanimation) = PORE CONNECTION (NACHIP) = PRANAYAMA CYCLES = SELF-FLAGELLATING (Hyperstition) = SINOFUTURISM = SOCIAL GROUPING (Piet) = TEMPORAL FIGURE (Logiques des mondes) = THE FATAL PERFUME (Expansion) = THE FIRST GATE (GT-01) (CCRU).
AQ 996 = SANCTIONING A WAR: A DISPOSITIONAL OR SITUATIONAL TRAIT (David J. Krus & James M. Webb) = RETHINK ALL OF PAINTING FROM THE PERSPECTIVE OF THE EVENT (David Sneek, Being and Event Reading Group: Meditations 31, 35 and 36: Like Schönberg, Kandinsky went on to formalize the disorder of his first abstractions in a systematical way. The book Point and Line to Plane tried to make an inventarization of the minimal gestures of painting; points, curves, triangles. And from there, to rethink all of painting from the perspective of the event; to invent a language for it; to inscribe it into the encyclopedia).
• war cycles :: The theory of war cycles holds that wars happen in cycles. The original meaning of a cycle (from Greek κυκλος meaning circle) is used here not in the physical sense, but in a temporal sense as the recurrence of social events which happen with far less regularity than natural events (as e.g., the cycles of seasons.)
• Friedrich Schleiermacher :: German philosopher, Protestant theologian and originator of modern hermeneutics who believed that the individual must develop a personal religious attitude. + Schleiermacher classifies the virtues under the two forms of Gesinnung and Fertigkeit, the first consisting of the pure ideal element in action and the second the form it assumes in relation to circumstances, each of the two classes falling respectively into the two diyisions of wisdom and love and of intelligence and application. In his system the doctrine of duty is the description of the method of the attainment of ethical ends, the conception of duty as an imperative, or obligation, being excluded, as we have seen.
• supreme crime :: The legal principle that to initiate a war not in self defense, but with the intent to conquest territory and subjugate other people is not only a crime but a supreme crime was introduced by Justice Robert H. Jackson at Nuremberg Trials, taking place at the end of the Second World War, before atomic bombs were dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. +
• Glossary of the Third Reich :: Revolution der Gesinnung — a revolution of feeling; the concept that the German people would not only develop a purified race but also a new mind and spirit. It was about, in Hitler's words, "to create a new man".
Agnes Heller in Beyond Justice: "Revolution is not a revolution in intention (Gesinnung, maxims), but a socio-political revolution"; also:
To paraphrase Marx, the Kantian 'first stage of communism', the establishment of the 'Invisible Church', this precondition of his 'second stage of communism', the best possible moral 'city on earth' already presupposes an anthropological revolution, the revolution of intention (Gesinnung). As far as morals are concerned, the good civil state is still the 'state of nature':
But if a man is to become not merely legally, but morally, a good man (pleasing to God) ... this cannot be brought about through gradual reformation . . . but must be effected through a revolution in the man’s disposition (a going over to the maxim of holiness of the disposition). He can become a new man only by a kind of rebirth, as it were a new creation and a change of heart.
adding comment about subjective destitution here once i've tackled the main closet.