February 10th, 2006


the 360º

"Be honest about what you see, get out of the way and let the story reveal itself." hey, anderson has a blog; 09-Feb show: You can't focus, you hate to be touched, a normal life is impossible. 360° investigates Asperger Syndrome.

went to see Dr. Young thursday to get lab results. not diabetic & my cholesterol numbers a-ok. surprise! asked him about getting tested for aspergers & he said he'd look it up in his books at home. gave him the autism society's phone number. asked me what i knew about it & all i could spit out: highly functioning, obsessional, etc. got the impression that he'd like to figure out how to diagnose this himself. we discussed zoloft & i noticed i was more regular, retained less water, etc. — but felt awfully "depressed" (sleepy mostly). however, willing to keep trying. maybe 50mg too much so he gave me a six week supply of 25mg tablets. i didn't, he said, seem like i was very depressed anyway. probably, i told him, not working with a normal schedule exacerbated my symptoms. Dr. Young mentioned Jesus when i was leaving, how that helped him (he's retired). the sweet thing about him: he's learning Spanish carrying one of those learn Spanish books.

had to come all the way home & take a nap before before waking up thinking about that orchid plant. it's on Maria's reception counter — gorgeous, tall thing with plastic wrap around it like from a florist. didn't notice it at first because lobby full of people. noticed it when things cleared out asking Maria about it. wouldn't say who sent it to her.

think all the doctors volunteer their time to provide health services for this predominately hispanic community. food trucks & lots of hispanic-looking guys standing around. ironic, had my sister's copy of Time's 06-Feb cover, Inside America's Secret Workforce, to read while waiting for the doctor. ending essay by Sherman Alexie, Spokane/Coeur d'Alene Indian, When the Story Stolen Is Your Own.

not enough money to get real coffee, so drinking coffee crystals. bad bad ... really bad ... coffee, but it'll do.

  • Current Mood
    awake awake

National Flowers of Italy

Once I spoke the language of the flowers,
Once I understood each word the caterpillar said,
Once I smiled in secret at the gossip of the starlings,
And shared a conversation with the housefly in my bed.
Once I heard and answered all the questions of crickets'
And joined the crying of each falling dying flake of snow,
Once I spoke the language of the flowers,

How did it go?
How did it go?

Forgotten Language, Shel Silverstein

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Asteroid #501-URHIXIDUR (Natal & Transits)

{Asteroid #501-URHIXIDUR}

massive brain dump of natal & transit conjunctions for #501-URHIXIDUR to look at H5N1 situation.

durn. vortex egg's old blog had swarming stuff — got pings for "clouds" (nephele|prudentia), "swarms" (bobobja|krill), "pestilence" (bobobja|AIDs|venereal), poetry (odin|chloe|edda) & flower (prudentia|uganda|chloe). Netherlands came up several times. wiki :: Swarm - One of the most striking behaviours of a school is its synchronization. Hundreds of small fish glide in unison, more like a single organism than a collection of individuals

{SwarmWiki: agent-based modelling} {Networks, Swarms, Multitudes (1)(2)}.

UPDATE [11-Feb|06:41] :: Timeline of fictional future events (21st century)Pandemic kills 99.9% of all women in Battle Tanx Global Assault and the world's population over the age of puberty in Jeremiah.

050827 Urhixidur       12 li 59'52.1933   0.2916250  -12°17'18.8521    4.232028251
050827 Boliviana        3 ge 17'36.1846   0.3342555   25° 0'25.4590    1.822952681
050827 Erynia          29 cn 40'22.5220   0.5126849   17°20'12.1732    2.830848678
050827 Wolfiana         5 aq 39'53.3206  -0.1484432  -15°25'18.7777    1.067887503

natal URHIXIDUR {13LI00} PRUDENTIA {12LI30}, VENUS {12LI47}, PELE {13LI00}, FARO {13LI21}, ODIN {13LI35}, KAALI {13LI42}, CHERRYH {13LI44} & ALETTA {13LI47} in 11th House :: VIRGO [EARTH][M][–] :: Aquarius [AIR][F][+] Future, life goals, friends & groups [Friends]; RULER: Uranus; POLARITY: Pisces. Pandemon :: BOBOBJA (Beelzebub, "Lord of the Flies"), Amphidemon of Teeming Pestilence; 7th Phase-limit; Strange lights in the swamp (dragonflies, ET frog-cults); Swarmachines (lost harvests). EON-33 - Dissolution / Formation, Catabolic Forces, Tests of Fitness, Intuitively. Porta :: #14-VINDEMIATRIX, "the son", or "branch, who cometh".

Cycle #14 : URHIXIDUR {05SG32} conjunct SHENZHOU {04SG40}, KRYL {05SG01}, UGANDA {05SG03}, NEPHELE {05SG05}, TAUNTONIA {05SG27}, CHLOE {05SG38}, EDDA {05SG39}, RUSSIA {05SG49}, FITZGERALD {06SG11}, NOT {06SG41} @ EON-1 - Unrealized Potential, Karios, Morphic Fields, Archetype.

#827-WOLFIANA conjunct TRUE_NODE {05AR39Rx} & POCAHONTAS {05AR43}.

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    dorky dorky


sacre bloo! — i forgot the white rabbit!

050827 Whiterabbit      6 le 51'12.6858   0.4318566   16°16'32.5553    3.372738785
060209 Whiterabbit     20 vi 58'52.7630  -0.1483944    3°25'22.4226    1.411604497
Asteroid #17942-WHITERABBIT

[NATAL|{5::4}] ~ #17942-WHITERABBIT {06LE51} • Character (White Rabbit) from Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland; Alice espies him, whilst bored to tears at a picnic, dressed in a waistcoat muttering, "I'm late!" & foolishly decides to follow him down a rabbit hole; See: LEWISCARROLL & ALICEDECLINATION: 16º16'32.5553"N ~ ANTISCIA: Taurus 23º8'47" • DISTANCE: 249º34'15" FROM ORCHIS @ [TALITHA] • CROWN CHAKRA {Sahasrara (Waxing 22.5º)} • Compass Rose: NE by N 33º45' @ 32 PATHS OF WISDOM ~ Path #14: ILLUMINATING INTELLIGENCE ~ The FOURTEENTH PATH (Original #29) Malkuth to Netzach = ATU III THE EMPRESS = VENUS = DALETH • 49-STAR TIC MATRIX: [[ ZONE :: ONE {Mercury} - MESH-tXP: 00/02 LURGGO ~ ticX 2 = : ]] — PRIME SERIES [1]-[75]-[146] :: PRIME NUMBERS [2]-[379]-[839] • EON PHASE: 25 (Phase Arc 240° ~ Waning Trine) Re-evaluation, Holistic Insight, Seeing Big Pic, Emerging • SUBDECADANCE [13 ~ LEO 00°-09°] MESH-31: MUMMUMIX (Nyarlathotep) : The Mist-Crawler ~ Net-Span 8::3 : Decadology {C/TP-#4 MJ+ [4C]} Amphidemon of Insidious Fog; Ocean storms (and xenocommunication on the bacterial plane); Diseases from outer-space (OANKALI medicine); Reguli School of the Deep; The Venus Magi of the Duad; Levanah of Degrees; Reason • GOË-ANGELICA ~ #49-BRIË :: #8-KAHATH [Night Demon :: LEO 05º–09º] (info :: v1.0) • WING OF THE WINDS: {(–)} Angel of Severity: ILQ + IH (Yelekiah)—IVHHƒ • FUTHNORKING GNOSIS: PITCH {Ana-1} MESH-37 TUTAGOOL ~ N-Rune {NAUDIZ :: 50º51'13" +14° Yildun Libration} Need, Distress, Constraint; Grief of the bond-maid and state of oppression and toilsome workBARKER SPIRAL :: Pabbakis {3+7::7+2} : LE 06° : #FF2100 : 640nm • TARO: ACE OF WANDS [W5] • 91 PARTS: 25th Aethyr, VTI (Aethyr of Change), PART-[3/75] RANGLAM (He who governs his thoughts); Location: Gongatha ("Towards the South pole") - Unknown; Tribe-[12] • DE QUINQUAGINTA PORTIS INTELLIGENTIAE :: PRIMA CLASSIS : Elementorum primordiae ~ PORTA [5 ~ TALITHA : 02LE52] Terrenum elementum nullis adhuc seminibus infectum • GENETIC CODE: UUG • SICLE RITE OF MA'AT :: [2][4][6][8]

 • conjunct SATURN {05LE21}, SHENZHEN {05LE52}, STEPHANIA {05LE55}, LUCIFER {06LE38}, BRIGITTA {06LE43}, TAMMY {07LE26}, HARMONIA {07LE33}, ROBOT {07LE34}, ROBINHOOD {07LE51}, GRISSOM {07LE52}, TARO {08LE05}.

[14-TRANSIT|{6::3}] ~ #17942-WHITERABBIT {20VI59Rx} • Character (White Rabbit) from Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland; Alice espies him, whilst bored to tears at a picnic, dressed in a waistcoat muttering, "I'm late!" & foolishly decides to follow him down a rabbit hole; See: LEWISCARROLL & ALICEDECLINATION: 3º25'22.4226"N ~ ANTISCIA: Aries 9º1'7" • DISTANCE: 293º41'55" FROM ORCHIS @ [ASTERION] • SOLAR PLEXUS CHAKRA {Manipura (Waxing 67.5º)} • Compass Rose: E by N 78º45' @ 32 PATHS OF WISDOM ~ Path #12: INTELLIGENCE of TRANSPARENCY ~ The TWELFTH PATH (Original #31) Malkuth to Hod = ATU I THE MAGICIAN = MERCURY = BETH • 49-STAR TIC MATRIX: [[ ZONE :: ONE {Mercury} - MESH-tXP: 00/02 LURGGO ~ ticX 2 = : ]] — PRIME SERIES [1]-[75]-[146] :: PRIME NUMBERS [2]-[379]-[839] • EON PHASE: 30 (Phase Arc 288° ~ Waning Quintile) Application, Authentic Participation, Greater Whole, Serving • SUBDECADANCE [18 ~ VIRGO 20°-29°] MESH-20: TCHATTUK (One Eyed Jack, Djatka) : Pseudo-Basis ~ Net-Span 6::5 : Decadology {C/TP-#6 MN- [6D]} Amphidemon of Unscreened Matrix; 6th Phase-limit; Zero-gravity; Cut-outs (UFO cover-ups, Nephilim) • GOË-ANGELICA ~ #18-BATHÏN :: #71-HAÎAI [Day Demon :: VIRGO 20º–24º] (info :: v1.0 :: v2.0) • WING OF THE WINDS: {(–)} Angel of Severity: VHSh + IH (Vaheshiah)—HIVHƒ • FUTHNORKING GNOSIS: PITCH {Ana-2} MESH-38 UNNUNDDO ~ K-Rune {KAUNAN :: 94º58'53" +14° Yildun Libration} Ulcer, Illness, Beacon, Torch • BARKER SPIRAL :: Tchakki {2+8::1+8} : VI 20° : #FFDC00 : 591nm • TARO: ATU XV DEVIL [P10] • 91 PARTS: 30th Aethyr, TEX (Aethyr That Is In Four Parts), PART-[2/89] GEMNIMB (He who is only for a season); Location: Phrygia - Unknown; Tribe-[4] • DE QUINQUAGINTA PORTIS INTELLIGENTIAE :: CLASSIS SECUNDA : Mistorum Decas ~ PORTA [11 ~ ASTERION : 17VI47] Mineralium, terra discooperta, apparitio • GENETIC CODE: UUG • SICLE RITE OF MA'AT :: [2][4][6][9]

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Here comes the story of the Hurricane

Pistol shots ring out in the barroom night
Enter Patty Valentine from the upper hall.
She sees the bartender in a pool of blood,
Cries out, "My God, they killed them all!"
Here comes the story of the Hurricane,
The man the authorities came to blame
For somethin' that he never done.
Put in a prison cell, but one time he could-a been
The champion of the world.

{Katrina Death Toll May Never Be Known (AP)} :: AP - Nearly six months after Hurricane Katrina, more than 1,300 bodies have been found, but the real death toll is clearly higher. How much higher, no one can say with any certainty.